It’s mesmerizing
How far I’ve come with
My recovery since
My first psychotic break
Twenty years ago.
I remember the sickness
And unimaginable pain
That brought
Tears to my eyes.
I remember praying to
God to show me
A path out.
I remember losing everything
Friends,
Home,
Money,
Job,
Health,
Sanity.
I remember thinking that no
Human being could endure
Such torture
For long.
I remember every delusional thought
Feeling like an arrow
In my heart.
I remember the pain I brought
To the people I loved
And who tried to help me.
I remember my paranoia
Guiding my actions.
I remember all of it,
And like a hardened veteran
Who underwent a war
Within the mind,
Sometimes
Wish that I could
Forget.