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Hello, and welcome to the website of Author and Poet Dan Hoeweler. I wrote these poems over the last 12 years to help illustrate my life and struggles with severe mental illness. The poems about psychosis are experiences that occurred throughout my twenties and the later poems are about more recent events in my life after I started recovering in my early thirties.
My medical history is complex and throughout my lifetime I’ve received various diagnosis including Schizoaffective Disorder, Manic Depression with psychosis, ADD and a severe sleep disorder. The three primary characteristics of my illness are sleep deprivation, psychosis and emotional instability. The unusual set of symptoms I experience make my diagnosis somewhat ambiguous. I treat my illness with medication, diet and exercise which has allowed me to function at a reasonable level.
Currently I’ve focused my writing about the potential negative consequences of technology including unrestricted advances in artificial intelligence, mass surveillance and automation. I hold a bachelor’s degree in Computer Science from Boston University and am currently taking online courses in Cyber Security through IBM.
I have worked as a peer support specialist, and am certified by the State of Ohio in this manner. I taught computer classes for years but left due to stressful work conditions. Working there helped me realize the various ways mental illness manifests itself. It was a useful, but oftentimes stressful, resource to better understand my condition.
The medication I take has allowed me to live a relatively normal life. Without it I would never have the courage or focus to write about the many struggles I have endured. Mental Illness is not a one way street. With proper self care people can recover from even the most extreme forms of mental illness.
I will continue to update my poetry blog on a monthly basis, so come back for additional content as I produce it. Thank you for visiting!
22 Replies to “About Me”
Can you…feel…that you have schizophrenia? Do voiced prevent you from NOT thinking? Do they fill up your ears and make you not believe that those around you are more than creations of your own mind, that all this world is all made by your mind? Do you ever wonder if maybe you can outsmart the very voices that plant ideas of the government controlling you? (I am facing problems like these and I wonder if they are shared by anybody. I am, as far as I know, completely healthy)
How are you doing? are you still having these thoughts “that all this world is all made by your mind”
Hi there –
I came across your page randomly during a google search of “schizophrenia and parallel universes” I am an amateur writer and psychology student currently working on a novel connecting some cases of schizophrenia and connections to parallel universes. Hallucinations and delusions are really just a ‘switch’ in your brain causing your brain to observe the wrong reality.
I’d like to speak with your more for my work if you are willing.
I am extremely interested in talking to you about your experiences as a writer and the impact mental health has, or does not have on your work.
I would love to speak with you further about this!
Hi Dan , I would like to contact you but cannot find an email address for you. Could you please get in touch with me?
What are you looking for?
Hey man whats up? I am diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic bi-polar. I was diagnosed at age 16 I am currently 28. What brought on my schizophrenia was a hallucinogenic tea made from the plant Datura. I also have wrote probably about 3000 one page to two page poems. Mostly one page though. I have had a lot of pain and voices telling me horrid was I would be tortured, that has since passed. One thing that really helped me cope was to capture my personal feelings in rhymes. I have had thoughts when I was around 17 that this world is a holographic projection and there is a masked authority running the show. I have had thoughts that I am being studied by some sort of scientific people. Kind of like a lab rat to intelligent aliens. I have had thoughts that I am in hell or purgatory. I have been able to recover a lot of “normal” functionability since I was younger but a lot remains unexplained. There is more to reality than many people know. I hope you keep writing it gives me peace to know im not the only person with these situations I am glad to hear your voice being brought to thee comfort of my home. I know very well whats its like to be a recluse.
Hi. You might enjoy my writing on my experiences with schizophrenia.
I put the link to my author page in the URL box. It’s inspiring to see someone writing about this topic so fearlessly.
We thought you might be interested in this 3-minute film about a man coping with the hallucinations of schizophrenia. If you see it, I’d be curious to know your thoughts.
I also suffer from a psychotic disorder and I deeply admire your poems for they are so true and very deep and I can relate to them so well as not many people understand what Schizophrenia is or how it feels your wording inspired me I to write poems if you interested In reading them please send me a email -Jordinleighbaker@hotmail.com
Kind regards ,
Hi my name is Dan. I am looking for people who want to share their experiences with mental illness, mental healthcare or the mental health system for the publication City Voices. Poetry too. We will only use your first name or a pen-name as author unless you specify to print your full name. If interested, email cityvoices1995[at]gmail[dot]com and I’ll send to you a PDF of our last issue to help you decide if you want to submit an article.
Thank you Jennifer for mentioning CureTalk. I am glad that you eeojynd Dan’s interview. We feature interviews of experts as well as patients to increase awareness and inspire people dealing with similar health conditions. ThanksPriya
Of course the meicoatidn was the most important thing in treating my disorder, and I would never want anyone not to take their meicoatidn. Simultaneously it is important for the doctor to monitor the side effects to make sure they don’t get out of control unnecessarily. Also I would imagine that treatment compliance would increase if the side effects of the meicoatidn were more tolerable. So I do think it is a factor that must be considered when dispensing meicoatidn.
I really enjoyed reading your poems and they’ve proven as a great inspiration for my college work.
I’m doing a project as writing from the perspective of someone with schizophrenia, I was wondering if I could ask you a few questions through email?
It would be an amazing help and I’d of course mention your name when presenting my project at college.
I’m working on a Màsters dissertation looking at how people uses Blogs and Webpages to share their experiences with Mental disorders and uses conceptual metaphor to this end. I want to quote your page always recognizing you as the author and owner of your words. No quoting or using of your posts will be done out of this educational purpose.
Thank you for sharing in such a clear way your thougts and feelings.
Best Wishes from Barcelona Spain
My niece is currently in the hospital and according to the doctors she’s showing signs of schizophrenia. Just want to understand if there’s something we need to do to help her cope with the illness? Or what will we be experiencing with this illness?
I am an Australian composer and I was really hoping I could use one of your poems for a piece of music. It would be great to hear from you.
Hey, my name is Taylor and I’m writing a book about a girl with presumed schizophrenia. I have experience with mental illness myself but not with this particular one. I have noticed that there are not many books out about this one and I wanted to make sure my description was accurate. Is there any way you can contact me through email? I would like to hear about your experiences with dreams, paranoia, sleep paralysis, etc.
I’m deeply sorry if this is too personal!
We are undergrad psychology students wanting to make an informatory video about schizophrenia and we were wondering if we could use your poems in our video to explain what having schizophrenia looks like, more so than a textbook could explain. We want your permission to use these personal poems, and we think you are very courageous to post them on the internet. Thank you so much!
Kelly and Lexy
Hello Lexy and Kelly,
Sorry for the late reply. Yes, of course you may use my poems as you wish for your project. Thank you, and I hope the project goes well. -Dan Hoeweler
I got it, I got you. You want to be paid attention to.
But why do I have to know this?
I would love to know more about this book you are writing.