About Me

Contact Info:  schizophreniapoetry@gmail.com

Though I currently live a ordinary life in many respects, my past is littered with delusions, hallucinations and homelessness.  It is only through the help of many that I have come to heal myself. This website was setup primarily to confront my jagged past and use prose and stories to retell some of the pain and torment I and many others have gone through.  It is also a useful reference for people who better wish to understand the inner workings of the psychotic mind, and find this disease difficult to understand.

I have worked as a peer support specialist in the past, and am certified by the State of Ohio in this manner.  I taught computer classes for years to mentally disabled students, but left due to a lack of decent pay and stressful work conditions.  Working there helped me realize the various ways mental illness manifests itself and allowed me to understand myself better by meeting people in similar circumstances. My credentials can be seen below:

The majority of the poems I write are directly related to experiences that I have had, with a small number of exceptions that where mostly written earlier in my writing career. From having worked with the mentally ill in the past, I know that some of these experiences overlap with other people that have psychotic disorders.  

Currently I spend my time writing poetry and articles while trying to pay the bills working odd jobs. Thanks to my medication I have been able to move on with my life, but my past still haunts me and I am a bit traumatized by everything that I have gone through. I think one way I cope with this problem is by trying to write and rationalize the things I have experienced in the past. Writing poetry about my psychotic experiences helps me to see these psychotic episodes for what they truly are: the product of a mind that wants to destroy itself.

 

20 Replies to “About Me”

  1. Can you…feel…that you have schizophrenia? Do voiced prevent you from NOT thinking? Do they fill up your ears and make you not believe that those around you are more than creations of your own mind, that all this world is all made by your mind? Do you ever wonder if maybe you can outsmart the very voices that plant ideas of the government controlling you? (I am facing problems like these and I wonder if they are shared by anybody. I am, as far as I know, completely healthy)

    1. Hi Gray

      How are you doing? are you still having these thoughts “that all this world is all made by your mind”

    2. Hey man whats up? I am diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic bi-polar. I was diagnosed at age 16 I am currently 28. What brought on my schizophrenia was a hallucinogenic tea made from the plant Datura. I also have wrote probably about 3000 one page to two page poems. Mostly one page though. I have had a lot of pain and voices telling me horrid was I would be tortured, that has since passed. One thing that really helped me cope was to capture my personal feelings in rhymes. I have had thoughts when I was around 17 that this world is a holographic projection and there is a masked authority running the show. I have had thoughts that I am being studied by some sort of scientific people. Kind of like a lab rat to intelligent aliens. I have had thoughts that I am in hell or purgatory. I have been able to recover a lot of “normal” functionability since I was younger but a lot remains unexplained. There is more to reality than many people know. I hope you keep writing it gives me peace to know im not the only person with these situations I am glad to hear your voice being brought to thee comfort of my home. I know very well whats its like to be a recluse.

  2. Hi there –
    I came across your page randomly during a google search of “schizophrenia and parallel universes” I am an amateur writer and psychology student currently working on a novel connecting some cases of schizophrenia and connections to parallel universes. Hallucinations and delusions are really just a ‘switch’ in your brain causing your brain to observe the wrong reality.
    I’d like to speak with your more for my work if you are willing.
    Thank you!

  3. Hi there,
    I am extremely interested in talking to you about your experiences as a writer and the impact mental health has, or does not have on your work.
    I would love to speak with you further about this!
    Thank you
    Tara-Marie

  4. Hi Dan , I would like to contact you but cannot find an email address for you. Could you please get in touch with me?

    Best

    1. Thank you Jennifer for mentioning CureTalk. I am glad that you eeojynd Dan’s interview. We feature interviews of experts as well as patients to increase awareness and inspire people dealing with similar health conditions. ThanksPriya

  5. Dan ,
    I also suffer from a psychotic disorder and I deeply admire your poems for they are so true and very deep and I can relate to them so well as not many people understand what Schizophrenia is or how it feels your wording inspired me I to write poems if you interested In reading them please send me a email -Jordinleighbaker@hotmail.com

    Kind regards ,
    Jordin

  6. Hi my name is Dan. I am looking for people who want to share their experiences with mental illness, mental healthcare or the mental health system for the publication City Voices. Poetry too. We will only use your first name or a pen-name as author unless you specify to print your full name. If interested, email cityvoices1995[at]gmail[dot]com and I’ll send to you a PDF of our last issue to help you decide if you want to submit an article.

  7. Of course the meicoatidn was the most important thing in treating my disorder, and I would never want anyone not to take their meicoatidn. Simultaneously it is important for the doctor to monitor the side effects to make sure they don’t get out of control unnecessarily. Also I would imagine that treatment compliance would increase if the side effects of the meicoatidn were more tolerable. So I do think it is a factor that must be considered when dispensing meicoatidn.

  8. Hi Dan,
    I really enjoyed reading your poems and they’ve proven as a great inspiration for my college work.
    I’m doing a project as writing from the perspective of someone with schizophrenia, I was wondering if I could ask you a few questions through email?

    It would be an amazing help and I’d of course mention your name when presenting my project at college.

    Thank you!

    Chloe

  9. Good evening.

    I’m working on a Màsters dissertation looking at how people uses Blogs and Webpages to share their experiences with Mental disorders and uses conceptual metaphor to this end. I want to quote your page always recognizing you as the author and owner of your words. No quoting or using of your posts will be done out of this educational purpose.

    Thank you for sharing in such a clear way your thougts and feelings.

    Best Wishes from Barcelona Spain

    Pau Gimeno

  10. Hi Dan,

    I am an Australian composer and I was really hoping I could use one of your poems for a piece of music. It would be great to hear from you.

    Thanks,

    Mitch

  11. Hi Dan,
    We are undergrad psychology students wanting to make an informatory video about schizophrenia and we were wondering if we could use your poems in our video to explain what having schizophrenia looks like, more so than a textbook could explain. We want your permission to use these personal poems, and we think you are very courageous to post them on the internet. Thank you so much!

    Blessings,
    Kelly and Lexy

    1. Hello Lexy and Kelly,
      Sorry for the late reply. Yes, of course you may use my poems as you wish for your project. Thank you, and I hope the project goes well. -Dan Hoeweler

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